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This fellow just turned up one day at the
eastvillage.com guestbook. It is my opinion (albeit
uneducated) that he is one of the best poets I ever read. In
particular, his poem "Seed" actually made me gasp out loud. Do
check it out. (And I thought that I loved trees).
"Recovery"
Drawn by a distant warmth, the Monarch unfolds herself from the
silk of her sleep and stumbles the length of a branch before
learning to glide to the darkened window of a grey-stoned building
silenced for the dying.
Unaware of glass, she floats through it and settles on the
gentle rise of a wrist where pale tubing weeps within a threadlike
vein.
Lashes flutter mildly like wings, and the butterfly goes to them,
landing softly on the bridge of the nose.
She discovers her own image reflected beneath the lid, and
passes through the eye to find the soul's wick flickering in the
last of its shadows.
She fans the darkness into light; cold ashes whirl away to memory,
and the tip of the child's tongue drifts like a leaf to taste
the sweet dust of wings fallen iridescent on her lips.
"Private Room"
They've allowed her to stay the night, to sit in a metal chair
and guard her husband's sleep, to watch the gauze darken at his
throat, the hole in his neck rising pink around the rim.
Sometime near dawn, she leaves him and heads for the double doors
at the end of the hall; once inside, her fingers fly over the
operating table.
On the floor she crawls in small circles about the center of
the room; she is sure she will find the patch of skin they took.
She will know it by the stubble left on the outer side when
she shaved him hastily herself this morning.
When she finds it, she will go to him. She will hold the wafer up
to the window, up to the cleansing sun; she will lick the edges
and secure it to the sides of the hole healing open like a
nostril.
"Seed"
I knelt at the stump and kissed its inner circle before
standing to undress: the sandals of vine, a robe the brown of aged
trees.
I saw an open place where my lips had been, like the mouth of a
chalice.
I felt its width and depth and went to my hands and knees for
twigs and bits of earth and dropped them in the hole.
I scanned the forest and lay across the stump, my body
balanced, shaken by spasms that left me limp.
I arched my back until my hair met the soles of my feet, the
trunk fused to my abdomen.
I felt my hands rise, fingers fluttering in a green blur; my
head bursting into growth, hair trembling to leaf, flesh
curling into bark; bird songs filling the air; a rush of wings
sealing my lids to sight.
"Cook Out"
I rise from the sun-deck to enter the thicket in search of a
bouncing ball, and find instead a grenade rolling toward a
thatched hut.
And I go deep within it: my eyes dropping to a sling, hung from
criss-cross poles, supporting a child, sleeping above the settling
ball.
The concussion blows the roof off like a puff of dandelion fuzz:
gently, not to waken the infant wrapped in flame and floating
slowly, head over heels through leaves.
I watch until he burns away in the sun.
"Night Sky"
O, Father, there on the tallest star, I promised you too much
for my own good. I cannot go daily to your wife.
I try, instead, to stop by once a week to wheel her down the
double ramps in time for lunch, if I'm intact enough to get beyond
my own impending age which closes in like winter chill about my
legs.
She is in great comfort: fed well, bathed lovingly, talked to
and watched, given flowers to arrange and plants to keep
alive. I am never
Her son; sometimes a brother, a schoolmate whose name she can't
recall, and once, a month ago, I spent an hour as her father. She
thinks she is at home, that you are about to enter every door.
© Copyright 1978 - 1985
"At The End Of Sleep"
It is always the same: he is far upstate where the roofs and lawns
are collecting snow.
The sunporch light is holding his father's profile to the
window. His mother is turning away from the oval frame of the
front door.
He hurries away unseen, feeling he has business farther down
the block, but stops at the edge of the next driveway and goes
back, taking the privet hedge in one leap, dragging the left foot
as he used to do in the high hurdles at the cinder track on
the other side of town.
He lands close to the drain vent, its cap an inch or two above the
grass; he kneels and sees it is the same perforated lid he scarred
on Saturdays with the handmower.
He taps at the window next to his father's chair and reads his
lips as he mouths the nickname he used for a lifetime. He puts his
hand flat to the glass, expecting his father to do the same,
measuring hand to hand, but his hand is alone, the fingers feeling
the grit that swirls in the air in that part of the country.
He looks deep into the house. The rooms are empty. His father's
head is cut from cardboard and stuck to the glass. A single dab of
flour paste, still wet as milk, begins its run down the cold clear
pane between them.
"The End Of Things"
Supper tonight was served by strangers in a truckstop far from the
kitchen sink where his mother stood watching him back out over
gravel, too close to the oak he scraped more than once on those late
nights they warned him about. Perhaps he's had enough.
His room is fast becoming a shrine: clean linen, homework arranged
near his books, fresh flowers at the door, new pajamas folded at the
pillow he should come home to, and the lamp: Its limp Christ, with
a 7 1/2 watt candle in His fist, nailed to the window jamb.
The father wakens in the night and carries a drink upstairs to
disturb the room. He feels the bed, empty in the half-light. He flicks
off the lamp and studies the shapes of his son's belongings,
hoping to find things missing, but they are there.
The B-29 they built together holds on to the sky by a thumbtack the
size of a button on a puflcoat, the one his son wore the last time
he saw him slamming out through the pantry, his answer cut off by
the banging of the door.
He needs another drink, but lies down instead, his head sinking in
where his son's should be. In what approximates sleep, he hears a
voice behind the bed. He rouses to speak his name, to coax him back
home, but sunlight comes to wash it all away.
He scatters the homework and curses his wife and her fastidious
shrine. Downstairs it is the same. No one will look at him. They know
he's been drinking. He leaves them alone and goes off to his den,
to his tall window, his son behind the mower, the hedge fencing
him in on three sides. But it is only a tree moving in the snow.
He hears his wife and daughter in the hall, their quiet voices
keeping the walls from falling in. They shout Goodbye and leave for
the day. He feels better already. He pours himself a drink and
heads for the yard, in search of kindling felled by the winds that
worked all night. He sets the empty glass at the edge of the woods and
goes in.
Loaded to the chin, he comes to the front of the garage and lays a
fire as his son would have it: twigs tangled like a bird's nest,
sticks forming an open box, and narrow limbs the size of rake
handles to finish it off right in the middle of the driveway.
Inside for a clean glass, bourbon, and ice. And then the flame: the
first strike does it. The kitchen match goes white and orange and
blue. But he is gone, back inside,
Upstairs at the window, jamming the storm sash up as far as it
goes. And now it begins. Here come the pillows and sheets and blanket.
A shelf wrenched from the closet wall. The straightback chair
breaks when it hits the cement. The desk is too big and takes the
windowframe with it: glass and putty sailing like ice and snow.
The single mattress bounces when it hits. The box spring cracks
once and falls to its side.
And now a wait while the rug is rolled and lowered by its fringe.
Here, the pajamas unfolding. Homework flying like kites, books by
the dozen flapping to the ground. The model plane is off its tack,
heading for the fire.
Drawers and their sweaters are on their way, a closet floor of
shoes and boots, shirts, jeans by the armful, jackets and ties, two
stereo speakers, a double rack of albums, lacrosse sticks and
helmet, bedsides and headboards, a clock trailing its cord, a hockey
stick and floor lamp with shade still attached, a calendar
"Calling Home"
He dials his dead father's house where timers go off at noon, at
dusk, at nine, allowing the gooseneck lamp to come on in the den,
the radio to sift through the kitche walls and awaken the
neighbor's dog, who no longer waits at the side door for scraps.
Six rings -- Mother would have answered by now, but she's kept
in a vest that is tied to a chair In the rest home he chose from a
list when he was in town.
Twenty rings, and counting: the pilot light flickers in the stove,
a cobweb undulates imperceptibly albove the sink, the crystal
sternware chimes in its breakfront.
He closes his eyes and listens. He would like to say something,
but there is nowhere to begin.
"Laid Off"
The woman behind the loan desk says No for the last time and waits
for him to leave. He stands and makes sure his sleeve brushes
against a stack of file folders, leaving a clutter of paper at her
feet; he doesn't look back.
Out on the steps, he hears the guard locking the doors behind him.
Three o'clock. He buttons the only button left on his coat and
straightens the paperclip he took when her back was turned. He sticks
it in his collar, feeding it through the flap on the other side,
twisting it back on itself, against the wind, before heading north
along the tracks.
The rain has turned to sleet, and he looks for a stopping place. A
tavern roof rises close to the roadbed, but he knows he's not
welcome there.
He takes the wad of deposit slips he stole from the glass bin and
lets it fly, dozens of giant flakes coming back in his face, a few
settling off to his left, dark down the sloping gravel where the
stagnant water waits.
He's soaking through but can almost see the tunnel beneath the
interstate; if no one is there, he can get a few minutes rest.
It's no place to stay too long; beatings are as common as dogs.
He tries taking two ties at a time, but settles for a shorter
stride, squinting his way to the underpass.
The walls are wet from seepage, but he's safe from sleet. He squats
on the foot-ledge and pulls his arms close to his chest, blowing
into one fist and then the other, his cheeks puffed and blotched,
his toes working themselves like fingers in wet mittens, the girders
rumbling overhead under the weight of holiday traffic leaving the
city. He's tempted to stay the night
But hears them in time to make a run for it, three toughs heading
home for supper, shouting him out, swearing to take his shoes the
next time they catch him napping.
He stops beyond the bend and sits down on the track, the same
roadbed, the same water, blacker in the dusk. He hears the train
downtrack, the engine light closing in.
He decides to get out of the way in time to watch the commuters
dry behind glass. He feels for the largest stone he can find, and
holds it lightly, ready to shatter a window, but lets it fall down
the ravine, the caboose trailing its red lantern, pitching him back
into darkness.
He sits on the rail trembling beneath him, the sleet becoming snow.
He curls out his tongue, allowing flake after flake to land and
dissolve; others stay whole on his eyelids, closed against the sky.
He wishes he had gloves and a pair of buckle boots -- the ones
he had when he was growing up, when his mother would turn them
half inside out to warm over the register.
He can feel the flannel lining, the gloves supple and light on his
hands, the new smell of leather that means everything.
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